I hate being the person who constantly thinks and examines every little detail of a conversation. The tone of voice, body language, and facial expression all have an impact; and not necessarily a good one! The brain is wired to interpret the message being perceived by the other person. The receptors and neurones relay the messages to different parts of the brain; which helps in determining how to feel or respond to that individual.
This is a disaster waiting to happen when the person perceiving the message is an over thinker. Not only does that have an impact on them, but it can also be detrimental if they have other underlying diagnoses. Thus meaning it can cause many issues in everyday life. With co-workers, friends; family, and relationships.
When someone is talking to me, it’s now instinct that I take every word they say; and strategically dissect every ounce of it! Even after the conversation I continue to think about what was discussed. Whether it be something serious or something as simple as saying “I’m not able to hang out tonight, I came down with the flu!” I would overthink it and believe that maybe they don’t want to hang out; or I did something wrong, their lying to me. You could look at me the wrong way; and I would snap, the little switch in my brain could just flip. That would be it. Overthinking, and having voices instigate a battle… that isn’t needed.
It can be exhausting, the brain never shuts off; and with the underlying diagnosis of OCD, Anxiety; Mood, and adjustment Disorders. Overthinking becomes heightened into overdrive. It can be very overwhelming!
I keep moving forward and feel like time is just running past me! As if I’m unable to stop, and enjoy the time I have here on earth! To be over analyzing every little detail of my life; and working towards coping with recent events. I’m at a stand still….. What happens next? What are the next steps to take? Is this year meant for healing? Will 2020; be the year I come back stronger than before…..?
So, many questions….Yet, very little answers…. I will just have to keep moving forward, and remember to be positive!